Jesus, Be My Hurricane

I have built a city here
Half with pride and half with fear
Just wanted a safer place to hide
I don’t want to be safe tonight

CHORUS
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I’m only Yours now
I need you like a burning flame
A wild fire untamed
To burn these walls down
I’m only Yours now
I’m only Yours now

I am Yours and You are mine
You know far better than I
And if destruction’s what I need
Then I’ll receive it Lord from Thee
Yes, I’ll receive it Lord from Thee

(Chorus)
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I’m only Yours now
I need you like a burning flame
A wild fire untamed
To burn these walls down
I’m only Yours now
I’m only Yours now

And it’s Your eye in the storm
Watching over me
And it’s Your eye in the storm
Wanting only good for me
And if You are the war
Let me be the casualty
‘Til I’m Yours alone
I am only Yours
I am Yours alone, Lord

(Chorus)
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I’m only Yours now
I need you like a burning flame
A wild fire untamed
To burn these walls down
I’m only Yours now
I’m only Yours now

This is such an appropriate song for me to hear. I can relate to so much of what it says. I let my pride and fear get the best of me, and guard myself to the point that I need someone to come in, and like a hurricane, destroy those walls that I have put up so readily and stubbornly. The more I learn about Jesus, the more I am amazed at how he really does reign over every single thing in my life and in this world. This God will not leave us alone. He will not be kept out of the fortresses we construct around ourselves to dwell inside and retreat to. We cannot run from him forever or hide from His presence. To do so is absurd and sheer folly. And yet we do this all the time, don't we? We know we need the purifying flame of His Spirit to sanctify and completely renew our entire lives again. But often we still resist and rebel. Why is that? I want to be a person who opens the gate of my heart and invites this untamed wildfire in, risking the pain and insecurity and humiliation of the self, but trusting that the losing of my will means the total reign of His over mine. I want to embrace the reality that if destruction of my shelters' what I need, then I will humbly receive it from He who does so out of love and grace and goodness. God's discipline can feel like a hurricane, but he does not leave our lives in shambles. He makes a path for repentance and restoration that brings us so much closer to Him that all we can utter in His presence is "I'm only Yours now."